She sat there for hours,
Letting the fire set her world ablaze.
Page by page,
Picture by picture,
Memory by memory.
She tossed them into the fire pit.
Her heart ached,
So many years she could never get back,
Hundreds of hours both good and bad, gone.
Now as the first picture of them together turns to ash
Tears stream down her face.
She knew she regretted nothing.
Every moment had been precious,
Well spent energy
but where did it all go wrong?
She hadn’t a clue.
All she could remember was
his smile his eyes his laugh.
She starts shaking,
The sobs racking her body.
She thought she could do this,
Burn the proof of their love,
Push him out of her heart and mind.
His notes to her went up in flame
Why was she doing this?
The she saw them in her mind.
Him holding her hand, them sharing a laugh.
Broken heart slowly turning to stone
She threw the rest in and walked away.
Her black hair blowing in the wind,
And her bright green eyes ready for a fresh start.

Wrote October 22^nd 2008

Bridget Ann

-somedays it takes all I have to just get out of bed.

I count the days as they go by,
Mornings and nights all blur to one. 
            -If I told you I was sorry, would you believe me?
There's times I get the chance to look you in the eyes,
It's then I really long for your loving embrace again. 
          -If I told you that I needed you would you be there?
I feel it when you laugh, I can see it in your eyes.
It's like our own secret paradise. 
          -If I told you that I love you, would you then love me too?

Yeah sorta alot random.. i wrote it April 14, 2008

God Bless

B.Ann

-I can only be me, and I hope it's good enough.

I am sorry for this,
I can't help my natural reactions.
My first instinct is to protect myself.
I can't tell you that your why I shy away,
Can't let you in on my secrets.
Your what keeps me up at night,
But your also the lullabye that puts me to sleep.
Your what makes me get out of bed every morning,
To face this all again.
I don't like you this close,
It hurts when I see you everyday,
And you know,
That's worse.
So as I get in my life boat and push myself out to sea,
Remember me when I was O.K.
Before all this pain,
And before I lost myself to you.

wrote February 12, 2008

B. Ann

-If I told you that I need you would I be out of line?

I believed in happy ever after,
And that as long as you believe all your dreams will come true.
I didn't know then,
That nothing lasts forever.
I couldn't understand,
That you didn't hold the magical key.
I wouldn't allow the darkness to take over my mind,
It wasn't possible that I could leave it all behind.
I didn't know that in a second everything could be lost,
They don't tell you these things in fairy tales.
I watched my life come crashing down,
Took it all in like a silent film.
I waited till it was almost to late,
Just to realize I lost my only chance.
I used to believe that dreams came true,
But if that's the case then why don't I have you?

(*new*)

February 9, 2008

well that took a lot of thinking i haven't been able to write anything lately and actually finish it..

B. Ann

-Time is running out, press pause.

I see you sitting there,
You look at me like you do.
It makes my heart jump like old times,
Only it's different now.
My heart isn't the same,
And you spoke one to many lies.
I just couldn't take it,
You always putting me down,
Then trying to pick me back up.
I couldnt take it,
My life wasn't able to hold your broken promises any longer.
You hurt me so,
And I sat by and let you.
So is that my payment for loveing you?
Is that what I get for giving you my everything?
I guess to you it really is fair..

I need to let you go,
I need to say good-bye,
I need to live my life with out you by my side.
I can't let you influence my day to day anymore,
I won't let you live my life no longer,
I am taking over again.
So I guess this is Good-Bye..

-Yeah so today is the day your life will begin.